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How would you describe this chapter of your life, and what do you think that it's teaching you?

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I am entering my second year of college, I am not sure what I want to do with my career. I have always had dreams and aspirations I’ve always wanted to accomplish, I have so much time but yet I feel like I am running out of time, to complete what I want to complete, and I don't even know where to start with anything.

I just feel like I waste time and waste time and waste time, and I find it that I take myself away from the world. I hide myself away from everybody trying to figure stuff out instead of asking for help. I rather struggle, I rather go through something myself and find my way through it but sometimes I don't. I don't know, I still haven't been able to fix that kind of thing.

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...I kinda stopped forcing things. I stopped hoping - not hoping, but stopped expecting things. If I want something to be, I have to make it be, I cant just expect it to happen. That's with anything - when it comes to expectations with people, or with jobs, anything at all. Its kind of the perspective I have started to take. Yeah, I feel like that's where I am currently at. I feel like I am just a little dog walking along the side of the road, trying to make his way back home, but I don't know where home is. Its hard.

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Anything else you want to share?

I think what this chapter is teaching me is, is to find something that makes me want to get up in the morning and finish the day, actually go through the day and not just feel bummed about it. Actually get through it and accomplish something. I think thats something I should focus on, try to find.

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